When We Try Too Hard

One of the common phrases in Christian 101 is “being intentional in your walk”. This is the idea that we need to be actively, regularly pursuing God and getting closer to Him. For me, this means taking time every morning to write in my “God journal”, a notebook that I write letters to Him in. Each night, I write one good thing about the day on a sticky note, then put it in a mason jar with the ones from previous days. This is an idea I stole from one of my friends, Helen, which was inspired by a quote she liked; “Every day may not be good, but there’s something good in every day”. The point is to have awesome moments to look back on instead of dwelling on negatives. I can honestly say that I do these every day, and since picking up these habits, I’ve grown closer to God. This closeness is no doubt due to that intentional nature in my actions.

As many of you know from my recent social media posts, I’m in Sarasota, Florida this summer for an internship. I start actually working tomorrow, so for the past week or so, I’ve been exploring, hitting the pool, and relaxing. (Sorry if you’re jealous.) Through this relaxation, there have been so many moments of experiencing God that I’ve been seeing. (Cliché Christian line, I know, but for real.) There have been some cool, and extremely unfamiliar kinds of God moments. Not to say they don’t happen, but just not in the same way.

Sometimes I think I can be too intentional in my relationship with God. Yeah, I definitely can do things that will help me to interact with God on a more intimate level; there’s no question there. However, I would question whether being intentional all the time leaves out the wonder in the God we know and love. After these above mentioned “God moments” happened, I would say that yes, it does.

I was on Pinterest the other day (shocker) and I found this quote from Francis Chan’s book, Crazy Love.

“Not being able to fully understand God is frustrating, but it is ridiculous for us to think we have the right to limit God to something we are capable of comprehending.”

God shows up. He shows up no matter what, whether we set up the opportunity to be with Him or not. As a psycho control freak kind of person, I love scheduling my time with God, as bad as that sounds. It’s like saying, “yeah God, I’ll be open to hearing from you between the hours of six and seven this morning”. Yikes, that’s terrible when I put it in writing.. Instead, I need to be open to seeing and hearing from God in the times where it’s not scheduled.

Times like these…




Remember, the God you fell in love with was, is, and always will be a God of wonder.

Have a great summer everyone!

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