Since beginning seminary, my life has been in a fast-paced, exciting, and busy season. I begin my day and end it with academic reading, and the in-between times are full of classes and sharing life with new friends. Though I could deal with a little less reading, things are so great.
This evening, I attended a Compline service with a few of my housemates. Not knowing what to expect, I walked into a beautiful sanctuary, sat down, and began to simply ‘be’. After hearing a beautiful choir sing the Psalm and listening to the scripture being read, there came a point in the service which surprised me.
There was no music, no voices, no anything. Just silence. As I closed my eyes and soaked in the quiet, I tried to remember the last time things were truly silent in my life. No background noise, no checking my phone, no worrying about what is next. I couldn’t remember. I knew though, at that moment of silence, that this needed to change.
With so much to do and so little time to do it, it can be hard to create space for spiritual disciplines. In my Leadership and Spirituality class, I wrote a reflection recently about the things I do to fulfill my spiritual needs. I’m struck now, in reflection, that maybe my problem is that there are too many things I do.
Maybe, what I really need, is to be silent. Maybe, what I really need is to be still, with no expectations of what I need to accomplish or how I need to feel.
How can God reach us and speak to us when we make space for silence?